looking back.
road paved in apathy and pain.
baptized in blood, it drips from my nose
with no absolution.
What if it was easy?
.
lit by neon motel signs, I see
the body I have formed for
Myself in the reflection of a cracked windshield.
always broken. or hazy.
nobody can see me, not even myself.
.
the sky holds no answers.
the weight of a gun
in my hand pins me to the ground.
I can’t fly, I can’t even breathe.
words stuck in my throat. no air to say them –
What if it was easy?
~
pages from Dean’s sketchbook - 2004
the church of a lonely highway motel
(via spiritmunie)
getting back into merlin
I think Sam should have quit hunting to become a priest. Dean doesn’t go to Stanford to pick Sam up he finds him in a church. I think little baby priest Sam would be funny but even more so I think psychic Sam being convinced that he’s getting prophetic visions from God would be good and even more so when it’s revealed that he’s actually infected with demon blood and is lucifers true vessel and watch as he completely crumbled lmao
(via werepires)
several thoughts™ on dean’s bar-owning hallucination/dream from when michael was possessing him:
first of all, obviously all the details of this incarnation of pamela are basically a parallel to cas, making her as close as she could be to cas without being cas. the “to hell and back” t-shirt and the wings necklace are incredibly on the nose. but i also wanna add that the fact that this manifestation is pamela in the first place is a parallel to cas.
first, it doesn’t really make sense for it to be pamela at the time of this series. we hadn’t seen pamela for maybe eight seasons, and she died in season 5(?), so she wasn’t exactly relevant to the series at this time. but i think it was her of all people because she was dean’s first impression of cas. it was pamela who reached to cas in the séance and was the first in the whole series to speak his name, and it was the image of pamela finding castiel that is dean’s first time ever experience of him.
also, on the cas stand in being a woman: aside from the fact that the cw is very obviously homophobic, i prefer to think that it’s dean’s internalised homophobia. this version of pamela is as close to cas as she could be, but she’s just not a man.
thirdly and finally, there’s the repeated mantra of sam and cas being on a hunt and that they are supposed to be back tomorrow. or something. and it just kinda hurts that in dean’s ideal world, cas is coming back to him. cas is always coming home.
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CASTIEL ✧ 13.13 DEVIL’S BARGAIN